Keep in mind that I never gave up on you in the first place. You were the one that assumed that I did. Yeah, I REALLY needed alone time and space and I was really emotionally unstable, but honestly you couldn't understand where I was coming from nor handle me when I was at my worst. Saying that I'm insensitive? You're right, I am. I'm probably the most bitchy, apathetic, and straightforward person you've ever met and maybe all my blunt truths were kind of harsh at times. Regardless of what you might think are my flaws, I'm not willing to change that/myself for you, or even anyone for that matter. But at least I cared. I actually cared about you a lot. And what hurts even more is that knowing I was there when you needed me, and when the time came you just took it all for granted.
Whatever, if that's truly what you thought of us, then fuck you. I never intended to be this way in the first place, but if this is what you really want then so be it. Even if it means having all those years go down the drain just like that. I'm wondering if all the good times that we shared even balanced out with all the times you've made me so angry and stressed out. I'm not gonna go back. And you know me, when I make big decisions, I don't regret it. I know I'm not the type of person to blog about people and stupid fucking dumb highschool-like problems like these, but this time, I'm not gonna talk to you about it because obviously that way it's NOT going to get in your head and you're just going to make it sound like you're the one being victimized cuz that's what it usually turns up to be. I always try to be the bigger person and take all of it in and say it's my fault since all that mattered was that we fixed it all up, right? But honestly, I'm ALWAYS the one that has to say sorry in every situation. And I'm tired of the one being blamed for everything, even if it means blaming myself. You never take the blame for anything.
I'm just gonna sit and wait and have you think about it until you realize what all of this really is.
There it is, I'm cutting you out of my life. For good.
